I wanna chat with him again.

I chatted with someone this morning around 1am, I guess. On a site called Omegle you can chat with anyone of different races. So I met, I mean chatted with this guy. He even said that I'm the only sane person there on that site. And it's true, you know? No, not that I'm saying that I'm the only sane person alive in that site. I mean, he to, for me, is the only human being you can talk with some sense. And so we spent hours chatting even though he's ill and all.

And I'll tell you more about him.

• Male
• 21 years old
• From Turkey (but he is recently in London)
• College student
• He studied translation
• With a good sense of humor
• Listens to oldies music
• Likes action movies

I even shared a song I like to him, entitled Like a G6, and he found it amazing. Haha. Then we continued talking about other things.

Draft Eight

I sit here

Thinking of words to scribble

But I guess

Words aren't enough.

I don't want to think of you

I don't want to think of me with you

I don't want to think

That it might have been "us".

Created on August 22, 2010 at 2:54 am

Draft Seven.

I'LL NEVER FALL

I'll never fall for a guy as flirt as you.

I won't.

I don't want to.

You, saying you miss a girl.

You, saying you love a girl...

As if "I love you" is as immaterial

As you think.

You, doing all these things to me

And unknowingly,

You're doing it all to them, too.

To them you first met.

To them you're close with.

To me you're near with.

To me you just met.

Ha, alas! I am right.

I am right not to admit I like you.

I am right not to expect.

I am right to choose

Not to get hurt.

Yes, dear friend.

I'm talking about you.

Draft Five.

I Won't Regret, I'll Talk To You

I still love you.

But I have to end this for the both of us.

I wanted you to be the one I love.

But I love myself more than I love you.

So goodbye, lover.

That talk we'll be  having

Is nothing more than that of friends.

I'll do it for the sake of our friendship.

Bitterness has no space.

Friendship has many.

So before the former happen,

I'll do everything to prevent it.

I'll talk to you.

Maybe for the last time.

And nothing more than that.

I'll talk to you.

But after this,

I don't want any other.

Whatever you're going to say.

Whatever you're going to do.

Whatever it is that will happen...

I won't let it affect my state of mind.

Draft Four.

I told myself I won't be thinking about you ever again

I told myself I should move on.

I am the one who left.

I am the one who gave up.

I am the one...

So the blame is on me, isn't it?

It's my fault.

That's what all others ever think.

And it sucks.

Created on July 21, 2010 at 02:40 AM

Draft Three.

Tonight I lay here

Thinking of how we used to be just side by side

Thinking how the two of us started as strangers

Thinking of how I sang that song for you

While you sat there, playing the guitar

Tonight I lay here

Motionless as the air I breathe

Vulnerable like a child

Sad like the dark room staring at me

Created on July 21, 2010 at 01:27 AM

Draft Two.

I want to desperately forget about you.

But every single thing I do,

reminds me of every memory of you.

Created on July 20, 2010 at 2:42 AM

To do, or not to do.

At one point in our life, everyone will give a reason not to do something they don't want.

What to do when that happens? If you're the one concerned in this kind of situation, think why you don't want to do it. If it will greatly affect you and the situation (if your refusal will make it worse)... try to convince yourself that you certainly need to do it! REMEMBER:

You must grab an opportunity... it may never come back again.

But if you're another person and you want to help the one refusing to do that certain action, convince him/her. But first, see if it will be for his good or for the good of other people. If it is not, forget about it: you might be wasting his time and effort as well as yours. If it is, go for it.